I’m naturally incredibly analytical. I don’t think it’s to do with anxiety, I think it’s just who I am.
It’s made me good at my job (I’m in strategy & insight). But it’s not always a good thing.
Combine being analytical with anxiety and it can sometimes be a troublesome mix.
From being in between jobs and then beginning a new role which involves some travel I’ve had quite a bit of time on my own.
Time on my own is sometimes exactly what I need, other times it’s the complete opposite: because having an analytical mind means I’m often an over thinker. Being an over thinker with time on her hands is sometimes disastrous.
I’m thinking about everything A LOT. They’re not positive thoughts, they’re unpicking and finding fault in everything.
I’ve always done this, but the difference in me now as I’m older and a tad wiser, is that I recognise I have a strong support system around me. I’m blessed with incredible friends and an amazing husband. I tell them what I’m doing and they call me out on my shit.
I’m still trying to figure out how to be okay with my own company and as I’ve said previously the blog has been my saviour. It’s giving me something positive to channel my energy and focus in to. I’d rather analyse my pieces, think about what I’m going to write next, as opposed to thinking ‘why did I say that comment to that person that way?’ Or ‘I wonder if my new colleagues actually like me’ or ‘am I good? Or just a really good faker?!’
I’m going to be finding other ways to channel my creativity and in turn get more confident with my ideas and thoughts.
I’m also going to go back to regularly saying affirmations. One of my best friends is a huge believer in them and I have to say I think they do work.
In one of my many stints in therapy I was also taught for every negative thought I should counteract it with two positive thoughts. I’d highly recommend this – you then realise just how many negative thoughts you have if you’re anything like me.
Once again I hope me sharing a little helps someone. It’s normal to find your own thoughts uncomfortable. But there are ways to overcome that, and I’m on the journey too xx
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